Against the wind.

Life passes by, and she's watching.

Sitting to watch the sun die… 

Goodbye.

She doesn’t know if she says it to the sun 

or to him.

I couldn’t feel you. You’re always so far away.

Water’s coming darker as the sun disappears. The water doesn’t reflect herself.

Time has seemed to change my face. Face to face, in the mirror stares my enemy.

The life I think about is so much better than this.

Everyone feels so far away from me. 

Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me.

Here in the darkness I know myself.

Another thing is if I like it or not.

Hold myself up and love my scars.

The scars will remain and never heal.

This night will hurt you like never before, dear.

Looking at midnight sky, asking why.

Confusing stars for satellites.

Confused, running out in circles inside yourself.

Don’t know what comes now. 

Don’t know what you should do.

As the heavens seem so far now, who will paint the midnight star?

Please let me take you out of the darkness and into the light.

I just want to save you while there’s still something left to save.

A little part of my soul 

persists in savin’ me.

It doesn’t accept this world in which I have to live, and is always looking for something better. 

Something better than this.

There is no time to wait.

There’s not much longer, 

so don’t try 

and fight.

Chemical change!

My head is always spinning from this physical condition.

What a curse, nervous system complexity. Contradictions are the rule, not the exception.

One day your world will dissolve around you.

As one part tries to save me, another part throws me against the glass, 

increasing injuries, loving how blood is gushing.

The party is over.

Still dancing with your demons, victim of your own creation.

I can’t escape… I’ve created them.

Before crashing through the wall, I see something inside it.

Your languidness shining through a crystal wall.

Resting my fingers on your shape. They still remember it.

Your touch,

your skin.

Nobody would touch you like I would.

I was looking for, but never found you.

I’ve tried but nothing is working. I won’t stop, I won’t say I’ve had enough.

Beat the crystal with my closed fist 

before memories beat me. 

Splinters of glass ripping muscle tissue. 

I clench my teeth with closed eyes.

Here in this moment, 

like the eye of the storm, 

it all came clear to me.

Got to open my eyes to everything.

When you lose small mind you free your life.

Prioritize, always prioritize.

I need some piece of mind, no fear of what’s behind.

I had always thought that you’re my prince. Well, you’ve proven to be only prince of darkness… 

Now the real world has stripped you of your royalty

and from your kingdom you’re evicted.

Now’s the time for us to lose who we are and how we’ve tried.

Shit, I usually forget 

that "us" doesn’t exist yet. 

Not for us. For me.

My time has come.

Stabbed hearts drain off slowly. Mediastinum soaked of dark blood.

Psychological and physical pain are mixing up right now.

Blood fills our lungs from screaming. We won’t live a lie…

I won’t live a lie anymore.

I drink the dark waters.

They bring me life,

they bring me strength.

But I know if I fall down, I’ll drown in just a moment.

One second in the great abyss of time.

I could lose it all, but I cannot recall.

Now, you’re a shadow...

Vanishing of my mind.

She walks alone now, looking for a new place.

Never stopping with her hair against the wind.